At the end of long workdays, I want to eat, have a beer, and park it on the couch the rest of the night. I don't want to go to the gym and be around more people, so I played a Zumba! dance video. If you are a shy, cranky person like me, the Zumba! dancers are like hopped up dancing asshole gnomes you want to set on fire and drop-kick off a cliff. 10 minutes in I was sweating and near tears because their enthusiasm and ab muscles made me feel stupid, uncoordinated, and out of shape.
The first day was a big failure. But the the next day, I didn't even try to do what they were doing so much as I tried to move in the approximate direction they were moving. I'll just bounce around until I get in good enough shape to try harder. If anyone saw me I would die of embarrassment.
At first, my motivation was beer. I actually woke up Sunday morning wanting a beer. Like a real woman, yeah! But I told myself I couldn't have a beer until I worked up into a sweat. And I thought about what it would be like to feel good about myself and fit into my pants.
Then my motivation was muffin top. I took some photos of myself without pants and took an honest look. I was not as bad and much worse than I thought. Not as bad because I still have an hourglass shape. But my muffin top and belly roll are out of control. I probably need one of these -
Envision for a moment how wonderful it would feel to succeed. Do you know anyone in your life that has made such a dramatic physical change? You can amaze yourself.You might try an aerobics class, yoga, go for a walk, buy a weighted hula hoop, do jumping jacks, anything. I'm going to do 40 minutes of cardio and 20 minutes of weights 3 times a week this next week.
In other areas: I took baby steps. This was kind of a dip-your-toes-in week. I put a boundary up between myself and a bad relationship to give some closure, and then cried each day. I wrote about my mom, and that was emotional for me. Your responses helped me see so many other people have gone through things like this - somehow it made it feel less like a secret burden I have to bear. Seriously, thank you guys.
Set some goals - Spring is on it's way! It also doesn't hurt that the days are getting longer and there is more sunshine. I look forward to thinks I can do like gardening, swimming, not wearing pants, you know. I'm not all sugary optimism, you know that. But I want to meet it with my strongest self. Set a 1 week goal for yourself.
GET FIT! GET STRONG! HAVE FUN!
- A link to some healthy recipes for getting in shape.
- A list of fun smoothies to drink while working on fitness goals.
- A link to my Fitness Pinterest page
- A link to the kickass shareit Fitness 12 week routine
- See the original post here - It's like Delilah without the cray cray..