I'm not good at keeping in touch with friends. I've lived in different countries, and different states. At each point in my journey, I made good friends. Yet, once our daily lives didn't mix, we lost touch.
I'm bad at long-distance friendships because even when we did live closer, they had to drag me out of the house. I'm a bit of a recluse. Not in the Boo Radley sense, I just enjoy my own space. So how do I carry on the friendships when I'm in a different space?
I wish my friends knew the love I still hold for them in the secret places of my heart. I fantasize about owning a giant commune where we might all live together one day. Best block party ever!
-- Friends will help you move. If you don't think that's a big deal you are WRONG.
-- Friends will be nice to your mom. I can't explain to you quite how hard and wonderful that is.
-- Friends will forgive your choice of partner and be respectful to you. Even when they don't want to be.
-- Friends will dance with you in pajamas and bring you skittles and redbull when you study for exams.
-- Friends want you to be happy. It is important to them.
-- Friends will stay up late drinking rum and laughing about your favorite things. Then they'll help put dishes away.
-- Friends share a secret oath borne from you knowing their shit and they knowing yours. If you go down, they're going down too. But when you need to be uplifted, they will help you rise.
When I think of friends, I think of smart, funny, talented, crazy, kind, and most of all loyal people dotting my life like guards on a fortress. I don't know why, given the failure I am at closely maintaining our friendship. It must speak to their character not mine. Whatever it is, my friends amaze me. These ferocious sirens, these goddesses of crazy shining brilliance, would build a wall around me and shout down the devil, if they felt I needed them to.
I'm only here because of friends and family. On dark nights, in hollow moments of agony, I have thought of ending it all. I wonder if my friends even know that they have, more than once, saved my life.
I hope they know how grateful to them I will always be.
Dedicated to Lil Bear, Evelina, Boho, Soo Chen, Leather, Lulabella, Tamara, Camilla, my cousins, my step-mom, and many more wonderful friends who grace my life.
Write on Edge Prompt: Friendship in 400 words